Terrified

I just found out I’m pregnant. I’m overjoyed but so scared. My first time getting pregnant I ended up with a missed miscarriage. Lost the baby at seven weeks didn’t find out until the 12th week. I was beyond devastated. I’ve gone on to have three kids since but I’m just terrified it’ll happen again. Every time I go to the bathroom I’m scared I’ll find blood. Every time I get a cramp im convinced that’s it. It’s gone. I know there’s nothing I can do but I’m just terrified of every minute of everyday. Im convinced that the 1/5 chances will get me again. I’m not not even five weeks yet.

Anyways. Just needed to vent my fears in hopes that admitting it it’ll help with the anxiety.