Every day my mind races about how amazing a little family would be. Even just one of my own how happy I’d be knowing I had a family of my own. My SO wants so badly to make it happen. A year ago I wanted a family but he didn’t yet he always played it off saying it wasn’t time. About 5 months ago he told me “there will never be a right time we will never be ready, but when it happens we will be.” My heart melted and we have been trying ever since. I bought ovulation test strips and tested every day even on the days of my period just to call it all safe. We were having the time of our lives BD’ing every day just having fun. we BD’ed on each day of my “green week” we called it and especially on the peak days. One month down and the only double lines I ever saw were on the lh strips. Af showed up. After each cycle passed I got more and more depressed. I gave up on testing each day. I still tracked my cycle and on the day before my birthday I thought why not test today just to see. Well my lh was high but not at peak so I thought I missed it so I tested again on my birthday. To my surprise it was peak day! So you know I wanted my birthday sex lol. We had been active that week every other day not really thinking about it . We stopped “trying”. After realized what had happened I got excited. I tested the next day and my lh was almost non existent. I didn’t test for a whole 2 weeks I just lived my life day by day not thinking about it.

Predicted AF day. No af. Negitive test.

Few days later no AF no BFP.

I tested every 4 days no LH no BFP.

So I waited.

I finally hit day 63 on my cycle and I thought I had morning sickness. I was throwing up like crazy . I had had cramps from ovulation day until then. I had light spotting and continued to have lotion like cm. I was so confused. I don’t have PCOS or endo. My hormones are regular. I’ve never taken birth control and there was no new stress on my shoulders. I went and had blood drawn and an ua dip. Everything came back normal not pregnant on the bloods or urine. Sugars are normal. Hormones balanced. Still all the symptoms of pregnancy. My heart hurts so bad. I’m on cycle day 67 today. And I feel I’ve lost all hope. Still no lh.

I give.