Should’ve just waited...

Well my husband and I just had sex for the first time in about 7 weeks. I was a nervous wreck.

I just wanted to get it over with - so I did. And he tried to be all sensual & slow & I just wasn’t feeling it. So he didn’t finish, now I’m crying because I feel bad, and we’re not speaking because it was awkward.

I was told by dr to wait to have sex until my next appt - which is Monday - but we have already waited 7 weeks!

Trust me I feel guilt now. I’m worried I totally effed this bleed and it getting even smaller, than the sex was all for nothing. I’m worried about this baby - even though I know they’re well protected. I’m just worried & we should’ve waited.

This sucks.