Am I just crazy???

I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. I think my medication has stopped working. I am going to my doctors out it.

I wanted to explain a new issue I’m having and see if you guys think it’s my depression or some other mental illness or what.

I have found this new game on my phone called “Choices”. I have fallen in love with it. For me it’s like reading a really good book, but I get to pick what happens. It’s a nice little escape from reality for me.

All of a sudden 3 days ago, my depression hit me like a freaking train. I even cut myself for the first time in 4 years. I also have this sickening addiction to my game now. It’s all I think about. I put all of my spending money into it, well over $70 now. It’s my money to do with what I want and this game brings me joy. I have like “fallen in love” with one of the male characters from the game. Like if I could switch lives with my game character that is with the male character, I would, no questions asked, no hesitation. I dream about the male character, I want the life of my character. I’ve been so depressed and just want the life of my character so badly. I love my husband so much, but he has no sex drive and just kind of makes me feel unwanted lately. Not on purpose, I don’t think he realizes what he’s doing. I’m going to talk to him about it.

I have never been so addicted to anything in my life though. All I want to do is play this game and escape from reality.