At 10 weeks pregnant I started to miscarry. It’s been two weeks now of going the natural route and I think it’s nearly over. We had a chemical pregnancy at the start of 2019 and now a miscarriage. I had NO CLUE it would be so painful, gruesome and emotional roller coaster. The range of emotion makes me feel crazy. When I’ve reached out for support from close friends and family, I get dismissed and even told hurtful things. My boyfriend is upset but deals with his pain silently. I cry alone for this child.

I have two beautiful, healthy children and am so thankful to be a mama. I should be focused on them but my heart is with this child I will never hold, never kiss goodnight.