19 weeks and so damn mad all the time.

Broke- working but not doing enough hours.

The father of my child is out of the pic and I will do my best to keep it like that.

Dealing with someone with depression and anxiety is the worst, I know I sound like a heartless bitch. But this guy I can’t even complain about anything because I’m the bad one all the damn time. blaming me for everything. He currently unemployed, he was going to go to school to be a gym trainer but end up not going because “I’m alway on his ass” when all I wanted was to see him one day and was coming with mad excuses. I wish I can go back in time and don’t have sex with him.

I love my son love, love to feel him moving here and there but I can’t take all the bullshit his dad wants to put me through. The baby will have only my last name and I will try my best to get him everything he need on my own. I feel like a shitty person for keeping the baby away from once his born.

I hate myself for putting myself through this and more important from bringing an innocent baby to this world when I’m broken inside and out.