Sperm above average

Hubby finally got his sperm checked. 4090 million per ml...Everything is above average. Now I cant help but feel like I'm broken. I do have 2 children from a previous relationship (16 and 13)...My SO and I have been together for almost 7 years. Had an eptopic 7 years ago which ruptured and had to have removed. I finally accepted that I probably would never have more children but then March of this year I got a BFP. Only to miscarry at 5 and a half weeks. My gynecologist told me to wait another 6 months and if nothing happens she will put me on clomid. I just feel broken. 😭