Sleeping

Does anyone else find it harder to cope with your loss during the night? I keep telling myself that I’m going to go to bed at a normal time, but can’t fall asleep. I just constantly am awake thinking of how I should be awake feeding my baby, or making him smile. The days I have ways to keep busy but at night, I can’t seem to shut off my brain. I have until August 27th to take off work, but I’ve handed out resumes just so I can feel important again. I just feel like I’m lost.