In this pregnancy alone, again.

I’m currently 8 weeks 4 days with baby #2 and after a lot of sleepless nights, tearful days, worrying myself constantly, screaming and fighting with my children’s father I finally decided to leave. I packed whatever we needed to get through and left the rest at our house until I get storage. We are currently staying with our babysitter and 5 other... Yes, that’s 8 people in a house (along with the kids she babysits during the day). I feel overwhelmed. Like I went from one stressful situation to the next. I know it’s temporary and I know it was needed for myself, my 4 year old and my unborn. I feel stupid because after having our first child we never got our relationship fully worked out. We were living together trying but it was a constant fight. I found out I was pregnant a week after I found out he was doing cocaine and has a felony charge over his head for driving with it on him. I quit being able to trust him completely then and have been worried for mine and my sons safety already. He has anger problems that have only gotten worse since finding out. It was to the point I had a feeling of doom everytime I was in that house. Anyways I don’t know where I’m going with this post but I needed somewhere to vent. I love my unborn and I want it to be safe and healthy but I’m also not ready for all of the judgement and being a single mom to 2 of his children. I took these pictures the other day to try to make myself feel a little better after being told I’m a fat c*** and I’m fatter than his side bitch. My son is having troubles understanding everything but he also says his dad can’t be mean to his mommy now. No I have not fed him those words, his dad would scream and fight in front of him and follow us as I would try to walk out of a room. My head is everywhere....