sense I'm pregnant 9 weeks my husband saying very mean things.

he cross my line he said he dont love me, my heart is broken. we had so many fights but I never ever in my life sense we married I never ever said I dont love him. how should I react. I love him a lot, but I'm fooled I'm scared to lose him but scared to.stay. people usually say leave him and find yourself better one, how can I find someone else if I cant even stay away from him, I'm so used to him smell voice talk laugh, like everything. bc he dont agree me being a mom and please do abortion which I would.never forgive myself to do it. he even start saying please just go and die, he dont have no.one. I cant share with my parents.also because I tried to listen my heart and it's hard to.do.it. what is best what should I do what should I say how should I react.

I'm crying every day bc my heart is broken my husband saying go and die and after I dont love.you.

in my opinion I feel like he is trying to say leave me but in different words.

should I leave? or should I egnore which is hard to choose.