I quit my job..for a baby?!?

I put myself in debt to have a baby. "Oh let it happen" "Its not your time yet" "just dont stress".

I maxed out 2 credit cards a total of 7000 for meds, OPKs, vitamins, first

IUI

, doctor visits....UGH!

Well I freaking quit my job becuase it STRESSED me out. Now I'm home slaving in the kitchen to make sure my fiance eats all 3 meals since he works 8-12 hour shifts GRAVEYARD.

I MISS HIM SLEEPING NEXT TO ME IN BED EVEN WORSE WE HAVENT CONCEIVED A CHILD.

Now I feel like I am useless becuase I can't afford the monthly bills but fiance said dont worry. I have no idea what to do but STRESS.

I have to vent, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO HAVE A BABY. I just had my first

IUI

on the 22nd I want to know when I can test I'm an emotional wreck but I hide my emotions well...I dont want my fiance worried.