Feeling neglected.

It’s been a hell of a few weeks. Sickness on top of stress on top of work on top of our son being hospitalized (and thankfully brought home after 4 days) and I’m just exhausted. I have four days more of work and then I am officially on maternity leave. I’m scheduled for a c-section at 8:45am in August 7th. Baby is just 10 days away, and I’m exhausted.

I give and I give and I give.

All I ask is a back rub once in a while, or a head rub.

There has been so much going on and our son has been our main focus.

My husband apologized the other day, saying “I’m sorry I haven’t had any time to give you any attention this past week” yet nothing has changed since we got back to town and I just need a little affection and a little comforting to get through this final work week and final week before baby.

I’m so tired.

I just want a back rub, so badly. I’m in so much pain.

Anytime I ask, he’ll cut it down to 2-3 minutes, half-ass it or forget to do it at all. I’m not going to beg or remind him. I just miss the support and I miss him and none of it matters and it’s not even worth bringing up because it just opens up a can of worms.