In Need Of A Friend

I moved 1,000+ miles from home to be with my fiancé. We live in one of the smallest remote towns in the US. When I got here and got a job, all my coworkers were nice to me. I basically only got the job because my fiancé worked for the company. Everyone was nice to me because they knew him.

Well, customers were rude AF to me. This whole town was rude to me. If they didn’t know who my fiancé was, they treated me like trash. A year later, most people are nicer to me because I’m carrying around my baby or they’ve realized who I’m engaged to. Women still look at me like they hate me, though.

Yesterday, my baby was sick and screaming most of the day. Doctors didn’t do much to help. She was screaming while I got her ready to go and people were rude, made rude comments, and cut me in line.

Today, I waited behind 4 people in line for coffee for 45 minutes. My baby started getting fussy as it became time for me to order. And then 3 older women decided that since they were there with someone who was ahead of me, they would cut me in line. It’s a slow, take your time Town, it’d be another hour before I got coffee!!

I stormed out. I’m so sick and tired of being treated like crap here. I have no friends here. I’m invisible. I feel like I’m nothing.

My fiancé is happy here. He loves it here, is respected, has a good job, he’s good. I’m miserable. I want to go home. But, we’re about to buy a house here. Settle down here. I’m trying my best to make friends and learn to like this town. But then crap like this happens and it just makes me miss home.