ex boyfriend

so my boyfriend of 15 months just broke up with me. we had gotten in a big fight in may and took a break. he came back to me begging and stupidly i took him back after a couple days because i love him. fast forwarding to two days ago he just came back from a week vacation in canada and was extremely distant while gone. i saw him two days before he had left since my dog had died that day. when he came home he never asked to see me and so i called him that night. i wanted to see what was going on between us. the first thing he said was “i think we’re growing apart... i’m not ready to commit... i tried to gain back my feelings for you but there’s nothing there anymore.. i don’t want to put all my eggs in one basket.. i don’t want you anymore”. i’m completely heartbroken as of many other things he said. i know that he hurt me so much but i truly saw something with him. i feel so alone as none of my friends are really here for me.