Sooo impatient ! Just need to vent

Why can’t I just be oblivious like I was when I was 20 years old and found out i was pregnant with my son . I’m 8 DPO and I keep wanting to test hoping it’ll be positive. On a side note my son is about to be 6 and my dad keeps telling me I don’t need more kids although I only have one . I want so bad for this to be my month because this is month three off BC . I need something to take my mind off of it 😫