It will never go away

And not that I want it to.

Just went through 2 weeks of not knowing what was happening, HCG levels increase and then decrease and then increase again, 2 ultrasounds, to find out there is an abnormal pregnancy with unknown location, D&C first attempt was a failure, had to have a second to find out it was nothing and then two methotrexate shots.

This is my first pregnancy, this is the story I’m going to have to relive over and over and over again every time I go to the doctor. It’s so painful and just cry every night.

Does it ever get easier?