Needing prayers. Trigger warning

I need some prayers for my sister who just had a miscarriage today. My heart is so broken for her. I’m so sad and all I can think about is how it should’ve been me not her. I could’ve handled this loss more than her. She has been trying for a year and she finally got pregnant her first round of clomid. We were both so happy because we became pregnant the same month. It was only my second month of trying! Yesterday night I found myself asking God to let her baby be healthy, that if someone had to go through a loss to choose me. I know it’s stupid to think that way, but my sister has been trying for longer and all I feel now is guilt for being pregnant.

How long after you miscarried, did you become pregnant?? Doctor told her she can start trying when she stops bleeding. Now I’m just hoping that it will happen really soon so we can both be happy.