Anyone here ever had their c section alone or will be having one alone? How was it honestly?

This is my 4th child & my SO has been by my side during surgery for our first 3 kids but this time we won’t have anyone to watch our kids so he’ll be home with them until I’m put in a room & he can come visit. I’m so nervous about the whole thing.

**I also have no friends or family who will watch them