Two weeks ago, I became excited. I received incredible news that I was gonna be a mama and my 2.5 year old son would be a big brother. That changed last night. 5 weeks and 3 days into the pregnancy, my new world came crashing. I began bleeding last night. Not a lot, but spotting. Even though that is a normal pregnancy symptom at 5 weeks, deep in my heart, I knew. This morning, I took another home test after a validating doctor visit last week. It was negative. I went back to my doctor today and same result. Negative. I dont know how to feel. I'm devestated. I never thought it would be me. I'm afraid of what the future holds. I'm now experiencing the cramps, mild but enough. But do I feel normal?... No.. Will I ever, who knows. But I do know that I will never be the same. I just have to continue the mantra, this pain too shall pass.