My life came crashing down on July 20th I was 22 weeks and 2 days. I was placed on bed rest since the 15th because my cervix started to funnel. On July 4th I lost my mucus plug I went to the hospital and I was told everything was fine but everything wasn’t fine. I started to feel a lot of pressure I started to feel like something was wrong on Sunday July 14th I woke up really wet I thought maybe it was my amniotic fluid leaking so I went to my doctors appointment that Monday and that’s when I found out my cervix was funneling I also had IUGR my baby’s growth was 2 weeks behind with no improvement 💔 then that Tuesday 7/16/19 I woke up wet again and I went to my doctors that’s when he did a pelvic exam and I found out my membrane was showing and I was 1 cm dilated. I did everything the doctor told me stay in bed minimal movement then my world came crashing down that following Saturday 7/20/19 I woke up at 4am at first I thought I needed to pee so I went and i came back to bed I started to feel cramps I thought maybe my baby was uncomfortable so I tried to find a comfort spot and I couldn’t I was stretching my back by I finally was able to take a small nap I woke up at 7am with more cramps I told my sweetie something was wrong and I headed out to the hospital they placed a monitor on my stomach the whole time I still didn’t know what was going on, I would laugh through the pain and breathe it out by 11:30 am I started to feel something tugging from my belly button it hurt so bad I was almost in tears at 11:45am my water broke I was so scared I had never in my life felt that fear in my heart and soul, nurse came running in checks me and I am 4 cm dilated she undressed me so quickly everything happened so quickly they rushed to the delivery room I had the sudden urge to pee and the nurse told me not to pee or push I was in so much pain and I was so scared my doctor came in checked me and told me I was 8 CM dilated, she apologized to me and told me I needed push I told her no because the nurse said I couldn’t I then had the nurse and doctor tell me it was okay to push I told them I had to pee and I didn’t want to pee on anybody they told me it’s not that you have to pee is that you have to push the baby is coming the nurses held my legs as I tried to push and as I was pushing I peed I apologized the whole time I was crying I gave a total of 3 push’s and my beautiful daughter was born at 12pm her beautiful heart beat was at 144 bpm she weight 10oz 9 3/4 in she lived on my chest for about 30-40 mins and passed away it’s been 2 weeks exactly and my heart hurts I’m lost in this world my baby is gone I love and loved those 5 months and 2 weeks I got with her I kissed her forehead her little hands her little feet I said good bye to the one person I thought I would never have to say those words too... I miss her so much

To my beautiful angel mommy and daddy loves love, we miss you, you will forever be in our hearts, there will never be a day that you won’t be missed or thought of. My Gaby my world my everything

I was diagnosed with IUGR, the umbilical cord only had 1 artery and 1 vein instead of the 2, incompetent cervix, PPROM, I had some kind of infection I guess it was from losing my mucus plug, preterm labor.

I was told that my next pregnancy I would need a cervical cerclage and progesterone shots starting at 16-18 weeks to prevent preterm birth ...

I want to try again,I was told I could try again after my 6 weeks but I’m scared that I will go through something similar again