We lost our LO back in February due to a blood pressure episode that just couldn’t be controlled. I left with hypertension and medication. I have worked very hard to get off some medications so we can try again.

We agreed we wouldn’t actively try again until my doctor gave the okay which will be in October if I meet my weight goal to help bring down my bp.

I track my ovulation and we usually steer clear of any sex during that week and take precautions. (Pull out). The tracking is pretty spot on.

I so badly want to be pregnant again.. I think about not telling him when I’m ovulating and just using his little soldiers while he out the room getting me a towel.. is this wrong? How do I deal with these feelings?