Kinda serious

Ok so here goes,

For a while now (2ish years) I’ve just felt like I’m drowning in everything. School work, work, family, friends everything just exhausts me. I tried going to a psychologist but I didn’t open up at all because I’m under 18 and to worried he’d tell my mum about me. I’ve cut myself regularly for the 2 years because I feel like the sting at least makes me feel something. I’m not suicidal at all because I know I’d kill my mum and dad and little sister but I’m just drowning in life.

Any advice?

TIA x