I am 22 years old and was just told about 3 days ago I was pregnant. I wanted this for sooo long planned for this. I’m pregnant with my exes baby and yes we did plan this baby together but now he wants nothing to do with me. We were planning on getting married and trying to have kids and even move in together. I was told for almost 4 years I could not conceive a child.

This is my miracle baby right now but the reason why my boyfriend and I broke up is because he cheated multiple times and once almost could’ve gave me a std(that was curable) but I just could not trust someone who could endanger my health again. He dumped me when another female got in my DMs on Instagram saying she was with dating him for almost 3 months. My grandfather was in the hospital,life or death situation and I was very upset but mostly drained from crying about my grandfather who was basically my father. He blocked me and ghosted me on everything before I could even confront him about who this girl is. Messaged me sending videos of him crying constantly drinking and just a complete mess about how he loves me. Now I’m pregnant with his baby and he recently got a girlfriend for almost 2 weeks and act like I don’t exist at all or even cares if Live or die in this life or death situation. My family is completely supportive

But I found out that I am hemorrhaging and could possibly have a Hematoma(which is why it’s life threatening. I want this little person so bad and what if this is my one true chance to have a child.

My ex is very emotional toxic,family is disrespectful and doesn’t like me and he just read my messages and blocked me again and I bet deleted so his new gf wouldn’t know about this.

I’ve been super sick had my first true meal in about 2 weeks without throwing it up

Because I’m constantly sick throwing up and if I get hot the slightest I panic now,sweat,and it’s just a very horrible experience.

Should I have a abortion or keep my baby?

I want it but I don’t want to be selfish bringing this baby in the world and I’m not completely finically stable, would be a complete family, or my child be fatherless and motherless because I could die.