Engagement

Alright guys. Has anyone else felt scared during their engagement? Like doubting everything and asking a bunch of what if’s? Because I love my fiancé, but he is ready now to get married and while I want to marry him, for some reason it’s not now.

We got engaged December of 2017. So a little over a year and a half ago. I was still in college with a year and a half left and so while I was excited and I planned random things, we didn’t actually plan until a year ago. We got a venue, my dress, and a photographer. But then I just stopped. I got anxious, so we canceled our venue.

I feel like it could be because there is just a lot of change in our lives right now. With me graduating college, starting a full time job, and our engagement I feel like I’m retreating because of all the change that is happening (which is odd because I moved half way across the country for college without ever visiting prior).

Has this ever happened to anyone else? Did you just sit in your pool of what-ifs? What did you do to get past it?