Hello postpartum mommas and daddies!

I wanted to share my story as it has been mentally draining and I just wanted to show that pushing through can be hard but rewarding.

So my husband and I got news at the doctor that we didn't have long to have more children (we had a 4 yr old at the time) and we should try if we wanted more. So we started trying and about 9 months later we got a positive! We were both over the moon! So far pregnancy was going great until about 33 weeks... I started to have preeclampsia symptoms and being monitored closely. At 34 weeks our now 5 yr old got into a bad accident and almost passed away. That can fuck any parent up as you play the what if's in your head.. luckily and miraculously he came out of it with a bruised knee and that was all. I think someone had to have been watching over my family that day. A few days later I started to feel sick and went to my doctor and had to go to the hospital over night and my protein levels in my urine were high, my liver enzymes were high and my blood pressure was rising quick.. we had scheduled a induction for the next week. Then the next day I started to feel really weird on the left side of my face, it started drooping and I went to my moms and we rushed to the hospital thinking I was having a stroke. I got diagnosed with Bell's palsy instead. Over the next few days my face was a jumbled mess.. I was feeling so defeated. The next day there was a bad storm in my area and our brand new Subaru got totaled with hail... I was an emotional wreck. It was just too much bad shit to be happening at once. A few days later I started bleeding and my water broke so we went to the hospital to have our baby! We got there and the nurses were concerned and called my doctor and when she came in and looked at all the blood I could see it in her face something was wrong. I got rushed at that moment for an emergency csection. I had HELLP syndrome at that point and a full placenta abruption.. I was minutes away from losing my daughter and possibly my own life. They got my daughter out and got the blood out if her stomach and she is doing great! So now I'm healing and we are about to leave and the catheter gets stuck because the balloon won't deflate and they're trying to get it out (as you can imagine this doesn't feel good) and it POPS inside if me. Hurts like a bitch! They assure me this is very rare and some nurses are baffled it even happened. So I feel pretty done with rare bad shit happening to me right.. so we get discharged on a Thursday and that following saturday my Bells palsy goes to my right side..... how in the fuck is all this happening to me??

So I get my MRI and thankfully my brain is healthy but come on.. this is supposed to be the happiest I am in my life.

So within the last month I have battled my son's accident, preeclampsia, HELLP, Emergency csection, full placental abruption, bilateral bells palsy, brand new Subaru getting totaled and doing all of this while caring for a newborn.. things have been rough but what I have come to realize is how much support I have within my family. My husband has been the most amazing person through all of this! Still calls me beautiful everyday even though my face looks nothing like it used to.. He does everything he can to help with our kids and household even though he works 80 hours a week.. my son has been so helpful. I have my healthy kiddos and wonderful husband and I can't help but feel blessed.. sometimes bad shit happens so you can take a step back and realize how good things can truly be.. So if my face never recovers I guess I will deal with that when the time comes but I'm grateful for what I've got!

Please, if you feel like giving up just look at your life in a different view and try to stay with us. 🙌