We just lost our fur baby of 11 years and 9 months. I cried when I was a junior in high school and told my mama i wanted a baby. I always knew my purpose in life was to be a mama. Well she got me my Lily she was a Pitt lab mix and was about 3 or 4 weeks old. She was teeny tiny. She started having mini strokes about 2 weeks ago and lost all movement in her rear end. We decided while she still had some quality of life we would put her to sleep. We had a vet come out to the house. She was great. My baby peacefully fell asleep in my arms. I know this was the best thing to do for her. The vet that came out said she heard alot of fluid that had not been there before around her heart, in her lungs, and in her abdomen. She said this was the best time before Lily started suffering. So I know this was the best thing but I feel like someone ripped my heart out and I really dont know how to go on without her. She was always my comfort and my constant. When I was upset I could always snuggle her and everything would be ok because I knew she would always be there. But now I'm the most upset I've ever been in my life and my baby isnt here to make it better. I'm just at a loss. Idk what to do. I miss my baby so much. Everyone keeps telling me shes in a better place, she wont suffer, she with pawpaw. But this isnt giving me any comfort at all. I just want my baby. I lost my child, my heart and my life all at once.