I’ve been trying to post this for a few days, so here it finally is...part of my grieving process...

A week ago...

Daddy & grandma took me to the ER.

Something felt different inside.

The tech kicked them out, then quickly showed you to me on the screen.

You were beautiful with a strong heartbeat.

That visit only made us love you more.

The next day I went back to work, happy that I saw you and I was feeling better.

I was exhausted Friday after work and took a nap.

I woke up for the restroom and knew you had left me.

I saw the part of me that should have been nurturing you and holding you tight.

Grandma took me to the ER where daddy met us after work.

The doctor looked at what my body had let go and told us it was nothing.

I’ve never been so hurt in my life.

Another tech took me and daddy to another room to try to look for you.

We looked at the screen with sadness in silence.

You were gone and left no sign of growing inside of my womb.

Our heartbreak made the air so thick.

Today should have been filled with excitement, seeing you and listening to your heartbeat.

Instead it was filled with tears, making sure I was healing after losing you.

We loved you so much.

Great Gma & Great Gpa will watch over you for now,

Until daddy & I can see you again one day....