2 days after

I am trying so hard not to cry not to panic over everything. My son was born 2 days ago and I haven't been able to sleep. Yes I have had siblings. But they didn't come out of me. We brought him home today and I silently cried. And I dont know why. I feel like I am going to mess him up. I cant stop crying. And I feel like my husband isn't understanding. I feel like a cry baby. And I kinda want to put my son back in there.