DYING INSIDE 💔

poki

Had severe pain on my stomach and some brown discharge last Thursday so went to ER.... They could not find baby said I was probably to early and got bloodwork done to check hcg levels . They were at 357 ....So Dr. decided to have me come back on Saturday to check hcg levels again. .....well I was so nervous and showed up Saturday at 5pm... They said the hcg levels were almost the same 387...So The Dr said the words I was fearing to hear ...”you are miscarrying and there is nothing we can do” ....He said let nature takes it’s course and was sent home...Still I wasn’t bleeding bad just brown discharge when I would wipe....Well Last night I laid to bed and AGAIN! The sharpest pain I ever felt on my lower abdomen and my stomach I felt very tender and bloated within second as of I was 5 months pregnant! I immediately went to ER and got bloodwork and tests and Dr came rushing in saying my HCG levels were at 780 !!!! which he said means I am pregnant but he also said he had to do an ultrasound because something wasnt adding up... Shortly after He came in and said that he was very sorry..... (my heart started racing and I wanted to faint) he said I had an ectopic pregnancy and most likely My tube had ruptured and the fast bloating to my stomach was blood!!! They sent me to a bigger hospital in an ambulance...I get there and get checked again ...sure enough they had to do an emergency Surgery to remove the pregnancy and the tube ...💔 I am now In alot of Pain spending the week at my moms so she and my sisters can care for my kids and myself ....and I am dying inside...Feel like It was my fault even though I know it wasn’t....My Husband was by my side the whole time and I am so grateful for him.. Anyone else who has been through something like this.....I am sorry and I feel you😪