I found out in May 2019 that my husband had been cheating on me since February 2018. We are a military family stationed in Germany. I honestly had no idea as things were fine between and we have been trying for a baby for two years. When I found out I was in the states visiting family. He had been using tinder and many other dating apps. He slept with this one German girl twice. The first time was less than 24 hours after he slept with me..... we have a almost 4 year old daughter and have been married for 5 years. I have been tying to work through it but it’s just so painful. We have had many talks about it and he regrets it and feels guilty but I just don’t know how to get past this. So many things trigger me. I feel like maybe I should leave but then I really do love him even though how badly he hurt. I’m just lost and confused and looking for some advice.