posted something like this in a dead community a few days ago, but i’m gonna summarize here because i’m feeling lonely.

so i had a boyfriend for a solid 21 months, he left me a few days ago. he was my first kiss and i lost my virginity to him, and about 15(?) months in he got me pregnant.

i got an abortion that i really really didn’t want, he had me convinced it would ruin everything in our lives and that the baby wouldn’t be okay. but after over thinking for the last however long, it could’ve worked. but whatever.

halfway through the relationship he got really damn mean. he shoved me and hit me, i was considering breaking up with him but as soon as i thought about it i tested positive. he soon became really loving again and we were super close.

after the abortion and after my 3 week bleeding subsided, he got mean again. like really mean. then in june he leaves me because i’m a bad person. then he takes me back a couple days later (because i was really determined that i wasn’t the problem). so i spend the next two months being the best partner i can be, then he recently broke up with me again. and blocked me on everything, and got our mutual friends to block me, because i was jealous and clingy, apparently.

i don’t even know what i did.

adding on:

i’m 17 now