Im not happy on where i am in my life. Ive been living pay check to lay check for the past year even with working full time with decent hourly rate. I havent been able to save any money. Ive been living in my new apartment for almost a year now and i dont feel settled, there are small things about it i dont like but trying to make the best of it. I hate what i see in the mirror, i feel stupid when i talk to people. I feel not good enough, bumb, and empty headed. I try to boost my confidence and self esteem by going to the gym, getting into hobbies etc but i feel like its just masking how i feel inside. Im just simply not happy with myself or who and how i am. Im not the vibrant, happy go lucky, silly individual i used to be. Ive been going day by day with this front. When i get home and im alone is when it all hits. I feel like im the person that people are settling for and not the one they really want. I cry myself to sleep majority of the nights. I know others have and are going through bigger struggles but this is mine. Any thoughts.