i’m empty
i feel empty
i’m not like other people
i have no one to turn to
not even one
my parents love my sister more
my friends use me for popularity
every time i let someone in
they stab me in the back
i’ve always been the nice friend
no one ever asks me if i’m okay
or if it’s okay if they post that picture
i’m everyone’s therapist
i’m probably the one who needs one
i let them walk over me like a bridge
going over a hole
they all happily walk over it
but they don’t realize that the bridge
is falling into the hole itself
it’s not fair that no one notices
i still love my ex boyfriend
he’s dating someone else though
in fact it’s my ex best friend
i hate her guts with every fiber in my body
he doesn’t know why
and i don’t plan on telling him either
because he is also my best friend
and whatever makes him happy
makes me happy
but i’m not happy at all
so instead i feel in love worth my best friend. he’s an asshole though. i know hat
i knew that going into it
but i fell so hard for him
i told him knowing he wouldntfeel the same
it still hurt when he told me though
just because you’re expecting to be shot
doesn’t make it any less deadly
and of course he has to act like he’s above me after i told him
can’t you see why i have no one?
literally no one.
people say i’m not trying but i am
try is a big three letter word
it’s not fair for you to tell me to try
i’ve been trying way too hard to force something that wasn’t there
forcing people and feelings and now it’s all crashing down
like i tried to force me and my best friend and look where we are now
i lied on the depression test and now they think i’m happy but i feel worse
i tried to be a good daughter and now look where i am, lying to my parents everytime they ask if i’m okay
you know i have 3 people i can talk to about this stuff
im losing all three of them
they’re tired of my sob stories
and i’m trying hard
don’t you see it?
all my efforts are put in the dark by more important things like which bathing suit she going to wear to the party
or her boyfriend
or just that’s she’s busy watching netflix
and the worst part is
i’m forced to help them with all of this
i’m disappearing and i’m screaming but it’s like someone hit mute
no one can hear me screaming
so i am trying but i’m so done trying to force things that aren’t there because it just hurts me every time
take it or leave it but that is the truth
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