2 cousins 2 friends a sister in law, a sister, sister of a sister.an me.... all pregnant at the same time.

some farther than others. One gave birth after i found out i was pregnant. But 3 months later at almost 20wks my daughter passed away an was born still... that day my cousin had hers.2wks later my friend had hers weeks after that another went. 1 about to go. Rest within the next month.

The day of my daughters burial one of these had a baby shower i wasnt invited to literally found out day before an id already bought food. There had been some issues. Some people didnt agree with something id done. But let me tell you . If you knew. Youd say i was right... i just didnt agree with manipulation. An id plan to make peace... the problem wasnt even with the girl the shower was for... an she had 3 just for this pregnancy .so it wasnt like oh ill invite her to the other or whatever... i simply am not liked because i dont go on with the bullshit. Id even asked if anything was going on that day an was told no.But anyway. Since i didnt know an had already planned everytjing out. I called the girl apologized an offered food she said shed take it. But then before everyone left to go their seperate ways. When id given the food i was told it wasnt going to be liked.. it wasnt good enough. Sending salad wasnt good enough. But whatever.. id told people not to worry about coming to the burial an go on to her showrr cause weven though it was 5min apart distance wise. Thwres nothing that could be done about my baby... but after not being notified he was born... i wonder if they just didnt care... an that hurts... an ive said the whole time even after losing mine i jusy want to see some happy healthy babys... but it doesnt matter. Yes i know its shitty. But i now have to suffer in silence because everyone else is celebrating... me an my baby have been forgotten. Ill never forget but im also feeling like ill never stop hurtinng either.... has anyone else ever lost a child while so many others are being born an tho ur happy for them your hurting an wonder if u can even see or hold any of them... how do u know for sure u wanna get ur tubes tied? I almost bled to death with this miscarriage... its a consideration

. Is it also ever been hard to see or be touched by ur husband how do u know if it will ever work out. Or if you just need to split...