Forgetting ur meds...

I just need to went. I forgot my meds for a few days and I just had the worst break down in like years. I realized it must be cause Ive missed my meds and now I feel even worse about myself for being so stupid and not taking my meds when I KNOW how important it is?? My anxiety level is so high and even tho I just took some of my anti-anxiety meds it feels like im gonna have a panic attack 😫😫 times like this makes me feel hopeless, like will I ever be able to function without anti-depressants? (Been on them for 6 years)