anyone else freak out when it happened???

So tried for our 2nd this month...with me having PCOS I figured it would take a few months...well it didnt first month and 10 dpo and I've got faint positives on like 6 tests....and I'm freaking out having anxiety attacks, throwing up, sick to my stomach all day... I wanted it so bad then it happens and now I'm absolutely terrified to do it all over again. c-section, diapers(my son just turned 3) and waking up throughout the night all of it. I feel like a idiot and my husband cant understand why I'm all of a sudden acting like a 16 yr old high school girl who just found out she's knocked up... I just really could use some advice...am I horrible for feeling this way? is this normal? please comment 😪