I’m very low atm.

Ever since I gave birth, it seems like I’ve just hit rock bottom. My partner is always out and about. He’s either at work, sports or clubbing. I get it that he needs a social life and he needs to work. But what I don’t understand is why there is never time for our relationship and our newborn. I asked him last night to stay and spend time with us and he lost it and hung up on me when I was trying to explain to him how I’ve been feeling. I messaged saying that if he didn’t want to talk about it, he could’ve said so, I did not appreciate being hung up on. His response was “what’s up with you?” I’m honestly so cut and did not respond at all. I planned a bbq for his birthday for tomorrow and his going out clubbing tomorrow as well. Tonight he just walked out and didn’t even say a word to me, just said goodbye to his brother as he walked out and shut the door. I cannot express myself freely without being shutdown or given the silent treatment and I’m over it. It’s always just my daughter and I every single day. I feel like I’m honestly doing everything on my own. When he’s at home, he plays with our daughter, but I don’t exist.