This is long but PLEASE read and give me some advice

My boyfriend is starting school tonight for barber. It was always my dream to go to cosmetology school and we had planned on going together once our baby was older.

I’m due next month and 5 days ago, he woke up one day and decided to quit his full time job, start working part time and going to school full time. We share a car and I can’t find a job for the life of me being 33 weeks and my job went out of business at 20 weeks.

I’m totally 100% supportive of him going and so proud of him taking these steps...

But this means I will be stuck at home all day everyday til 10 pm, with no car, no money, no friends..... he told me he doesn’t want me going out all the time while he’s at school. I used the last of MY money for him to apply and get into school and I can’t even go get my hair done tomorrow and I was so looking forward to it because I feel like complete shit about myself and was looking for a pick me up so now I don’t even get to do that because we had to get him all new clothes, equipment and for the application...

He doesn’t understand why I’m feeling so down. I’m trying not to but he tells me I need to tell him what’s wrong, so I try telling him then I end up getting called selfish and yelled at because I should “just be happy for him”..... I AM happy for him, I am excited and my feeling like this doesn’t take away from that. On top of all of this with me feeling so shitty about myself, all the girls he will be going to school with are drop dead gorgeous and actually doing something with their lives and I’m so jealous of that....😔😔😔

Maybe I am being selfish, but I’m scared of having no independence as I already don’t, but even worse I’ll be alone without anything ALL day now. Our baby will be here next month and she’s my responsibility now because he is focusing on school and working to take care of us. It’s all setting in and I feel really down about myself and where I’m at in my life....... maybe it’s the pressure of being a new mom and all the sacrifices I have to make while everyone else’s life gets to go on and their dreams get to be fulfilled while I sit here alone all day everyday.....