Do you ever like sometimes you’re only unhappy because youre inbetween paychecks?

Fuuucck i hate that shit bro! like for real. Like ill be so moody and even emotional then payday hits and im like ” YOU GET A NEW SHIRT ILL BUY GROCERIES! LETS GO TO DINNER! LETS BUY A POUND!” like bitch no !! you need to fuckin chill.!

Sooo ive been trying to work on it right… This time around i got only what i NEEDED! and anything extra was going towards something productive. like seriously i got a pack of highlighters for $1.25 and some super glue that was $6.00 . I literally shopped to keep myself busy in my tiny room since i for real need to save money for multiple things and the biggest thing…MOVING THE FUCK OUT!! Plus these tickets got me ALL the way fucked up…. So i do not really have the choice of going out and clubbing til i black out anymore…

So i decided to try and settle down and “BE GOOD” i started selling avon, badazzaling shit, blogging , bible study. So far it has been an adjustment but im adjusting fairly well. lol its only been a week maybe … But seriously i need to get my passion and motivation back… Like hello did i forget i grew up with a single mom who still always had enough $$ to get both our nails done,hair done and dress me from head to toe in baby phat! Hello! BALLA ON A BUDGET!! i mean dont get me wrong there where so dark ass day and shit was rough but we always had enough ya know and my mom always had us doing yard sales, recycling,lemonade stands,Snowcone stands, making flyers for car washes, making candles all that! She showed us how to get money for what we wanted / needed. She always showed us that $$ is everywhere!! We just got to work for it….

So since i have taken the arcylics off..The weed is running pretty dry.. Eggs and beans have been my diet and water only… im sure my skin will thank me later . But if i can sit here and smoke and take selfies, then WHY THE FUCK can i not open up shop? HELLOOO! the shit im bedazzling post on etsy. The older women at bible study, HELLO! AVON. My cousin has been giving me her recyclables and that literally requires me just picking them up and cashing them in.. Like you know.. i really need to humble and ground myself.

I mean baby steps right? So i decided since money is everywhere! i will be looking into getting my wholesale license . Trade marking my brand!. Opening a etsy. bedazzling canisters lighters grinders and more! Eventually lashes and beauty supplies. And of course indulging in lots of netflix and food.

As long as im trying right? Everything else will fall into place right?

I mean as long as i have food , weed and stuff to occupy me and keep me productive im chillin right? I need to embrace my struggle right? like legit can i just say im so fuckin happy that i handled my shit and i legit have like 20$ to go to the swapmeet! like gurrrrl thats like nose rings, liners,new hair clips,hoops and maybe a new piece! and ill have enough for my regular frozen pizza and gatorades lol

Okay sorry for rambling but! My point is im making the best out of my situations and i am taking the baby steps needed to make the changes i need in order to get out these situations. However i cant forget. MONEY IS EVERYWHERE! YOU JUST GOT TO WORK FOR IT.

FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.

xo

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