Am I a horrible person ?

You guys...I feel like I am the worst person ever. I am 18 weeks into my first pregnancy and I honestly HATE IT!!! Everyone talks about how amazing pregnancy is and how lucky I am to be pregnant. It makes me feel like a horrible human being and a worse mother that I am counting down every day until it is over. I am still struggling with nausea and lack of appetite every single day. I am still taking my antidepressants, but I feel like they don’t even help anymore. My hubby is amazing and tries to understand, not he just keeps reminding me how lucky we are to be having this baby..... any helpful advice that helped y’all out? I am just feeling so out of it lately. TIA