Or so I thought

I thought that after my rainbow baby was finally in my arms the anxiety would dissipate. That the fear of Losing him would go away. I know he is healthy and alive and spends alot of time in my arms. I know he cant die inside of me. I know that I need sleep. But I cant because I also know SIDS is a thing and my apartment can catch fire or he could get too cold or something can happen. I am so scared that something is going to happen I have am running of coffee and energy bars because I dont want to wake up and for him to be gone. Please tell me that i am not alone with this fear.