Emotional over baby shower

Hey ladies,

I’m hoping to get some advice/feedback. I am almost 20 weeks pregnant and live far away from family (about 12 hours). I haven’t had a relationship with my parents in a few years but am close to my in laws who live down the street from my parents. Lately my MIL has been asking my husband if we’re going to have a baby shower and if she can plan it in our hometown. I don’t understand why she would think I want to have my baby shower so far away when I live somewhere different and would have to travel. I already have a wedding to be in next month and then we are going on a family vacation with my MIL, FIL, BIL, and SIL in October. It’s overwhelming to feel like I have to have a shower in a place that I don’t feel comfortable, am unattached to, and travel so far to get there when we are traveling twice before the holidays even start. I talked to my husband but he doesn’t seem to understand and doesn’t want to upset my MIL. I just always feel like I have to cave and drive to visit them every few months and now that I’m pregnant, I just don’t want to. Please be kind as this has been bothering me a lot and brings up a lot of bad feelings. Thank you ladies ❤️