I told myself one day I would write my birth story on here.

I am going to tell every detail so other First Time Moms can view my experience and get to read about things normally people don't talk about. Things people neve tell you. Because no one ever told me. So here it goes.

** It is VERY long.

July 1, 1019 - Today was my induction day. I went to the hospital at 7 a.m. with my husband. My LO was due June 27. So we are excited to get to meet her soon.

We wait in the lobby room of the ER room, then a woman calls my name and we go into her office to sign papers. Here we also get some of our hospital bracelets. Then she sends us up to our floor! It gets even more surreal than it was.

We go up to the 6th floor and buzz in. We go up to the counter and find out I am in room 11. My husband and I go in to put down our items. At this time in the delivery room all we have is the "Dad" bag filled with electronics and certain items for our wait.

The nurse comes in, tells me to go use the restroom and change into a gown. When I come out there are two nurses. One on my right side and one on my left. One nurse is explaining to me about the procedures and policies of the labor & delivery room while the other is putting an IV into my hand. It isn't super pleasant but I got used it.

My plan was to have a vaginal delivery with keeping my pain management open. I was allowed to have ice chips. Which were delicious when you are starving.

We had to wait until 8:30 when the doctor came to the hospital for her to see us. When she did, I was 2cm. Which I was just 1cm the previous thursday. I hadn't been feeling my contractions but they said I was having them and were surprised I didnt feel them. The doctor decided to break my water. It didn't hurt, at all. No worries there. All of the sudden I felt a sudden gush of warm liquid. Then came the pain. It was tolerate for awhile. On and off I had pain management through my IV until I got to 6cm.

When they tell you - you have until this time to decide on an epidural and it is now that time - if you want it, take it when they ask before it is too late. I read some advice about epidurals before I went in that was - wait until the pain is too much (but before it is too late) to get the epidural. Because the pain of contractions will be worse than getting the epidural. Pleasantly enough my epidural did not hurt at all. I had to sit up on the edge of the bed and curl into myself. The nurse would come hold me and let my forehead on her shoulder. The worst part was having contractions during the procedure. I did not feel it one bit.

However - I was more afraid of getting a uterine catheter. But she waited until my epidural kicked in to put it in. I didn't feel a thing. I still had gushing liquid from my broken water and it felt weird.

About 20 minutes later I didn't feel any pain. Pure bliss. It helped me get from 6cm to 9.5 cm in a few hours. I say 9.5 because there was a piece that wouldn't leave so i had to lay leaning toward my right for awhile. Which helped me get to 10cm.

This is where it begins! I started pushing at 9.5 cm because they thought her head would push the piece away. At 5 pm time to push! They take out my catheter and the doctor comes in. Tells the nurse to start me pushing and she will be back. So I got my legs in the stirrups and get ready. I hold my legs back and do 10 second pushes. They told me to push into my butt. So I did and farted. oops. First time I ever farted in front of my husband. He obviously didn't care but I felt embarrassed. They said no no that means you're pushing correctly! So that's reassuring.

After 30 minutes with nothing - I got to break. now waiting until I got to 10 cm. They didnt put my catheter back in and this becomes an issue later on. At 7pm it is time to push again! Since I didnt have a catheter - I had to have a catheter real quick to release my bladder content. which I did so without epidural medicine. It wasnt as bad as I thought. so I try and try. I tear a little. not only does the doctor tell me, I felt the blood run down my butt cheek. This is a scary part.

As I am starting to push my lOs heartbeat starts to slow down. And at one point it drops to 70 beats per minute. the nurse quickly rolls me to my side and yanks the remote from the wall. this alerts an emergency. nurse tells the woman over the intercom she needs help fast. 5-7 nurses come flying into my room. I try to stay as calm as possible.

I am on my side with them trying to get her heartbeat back up. I get a shot to stop contractions for awhile to give her a break. it was a shot in my arm and the side effect for me was it made my heart rac and I started shaking. After an hour my contractions came back.

Shortly after I got to start pushing again. I tried pushing until 12 a.m. at this time I got a fever but LO was alright with trying to push this time. she wasnt In distress. They gave me tylenol. but I am EXHAUSTED at this time.

My doctor gives me the option of a csection. For the safety of my LO I decided to take it. a csection was never in my thoughts. Since I already had an epidural - it was fast prep. Nurses came in and washed me shoulder to toe while the guy who gives epiduraks comes in to make sure I cannot feel from my shoulders down. I had a hair net on. Husband had to out my hair up.the man would prick my rib area tonsee if I was numb ever so often until I couldn't feel thing where they were going to cut. I also had to get my 3rd catheter.

I went first to get prepped and while my husband got ready. when we made it to the operating room I was on a mat that blew up that helped them move me to the table.it was neat. I got a nose oxygen and the epidural man talked to keep me at ease. They put a paper drape so I couldnt seehe procedure. my arms are on the table beside me. The numbing made me tremble. he covered me with a warming blanket of some kind up shoulders to neck over arms. it was very comforting.mu husband is now my side and I feel better. While he is beside me in feel as if I cannot keep my eyes open anymore. I keep going in and out of consciousness. looking back I was just exhausted but in that moment I thought I was dying. the numb made my mouth dry and I couldnt swallow because there was no saliva to swallow. He said it was normal but I hated it. the feeling of I dont want to close my eyes because i dont want to never wake up was a real fear. I fought it every step. I kept looking at my husband smiling at me. he was holding my right hand but I couldnt feel it. I watched the clock as they were taking her out. 1:24 aa.m.i hear my beautiful daughter cry and I start crying..Born 7lbs 14oz. she was perfect. The whole room complimented her long eyelashes.while I was being sewed up my hsusband held her beside me. I got done there and they took me back to my delivery room.

The doctor said as LO came out that she would have never delivered vaginally because the cord wrapped around her body which prevented her from descending further. Because I could push her down good but then she would get pulled back up. Luckily it was not around her neck.

My mom and grandma come see her before she is whisked off to be admitted. I was shaking so bad after it felt like I was sooo cold. I got to hold her before she left. while she was being admitted a nurse came into massage my stomach to help my uterus go down. she did this twice 15 minutes then twice hour then once an hour. Until ingot moved to postpartum room. I still felt afraid to sleep. my husband didn't eat all day with me and stayed up with me. so he fell asleep. When we moved into the postpartum room I was on around the clock antibiotics of 3 kinds because of my fever. And I got micro naps. I felt very blessed to be alive and be able to be with my little family. To this day I still feel blessed and well taken care of. with an impromtu csection I feel like it went very well. I went through a lot. a little bit of everything. But

we all are here together and I am beyond happy. The end.

I have told my story to a few people and if telling it helps others. I will tell it all the time. Good luck mommas! you got this!