Me and my partner have been together for nearly 7 years now. We’ve been on LDR on and off due to the nature of his job, finally 3 years ago I moved to another country, literally half the world away to live with him. We’ve had ups and downs like any other couple, but we love each other SO much that I always thought we could go through our difficulties together, that NOTHING could be as hard as when we used to be on a LDR.

Last year he had to go for work to the US, it was damn hard for both of us and he always kept saying how miserable he was and how much he missed me and our little dog, and being home in general. I went over there to see him twice and he came home twice within the same year. The last time he came he even implied he wanted to buy me an engagement ring. That was just last March.

He finally got a job offer back home, he quit there and made the move back home. He’s been here for 2 months and he’s already hating being home.

We had a horrible argument the other day and I feel like he simply grew apart from me in that year, that he got used again to his old bachelor ways and that I no longer fit in his life. He said he loves me, but that he’s not happy anymore.

I feel sad, angry, deceived even.

I asked him if he would be willing to go to therapy to see if we can do something or fix ourselves and he agreed. We’ve been there once, he doesn’t seem very interested in going back, and has made CERO effort to look at another option even though he said he would ask a friend of his that had couples counseling with his wife.

I fear losing him above all, because I know that he’s the love of my life. And at the same time I feel like he keeps sending me mixed signals. One day he’s in a good mood and everything is fine, like the old days, and the next he’s super grumpy and barely even looks at me when I come home from work and we have dinner.

I fear any step I take right now. I feel so lonely because I have no friends or family in this country and I feel that if I lose him I’ll be all alone.

I have no one to talk to. This is so embarrassing because I’m 32 and I feel like a 5 year old crying because I have no friends

I am so sorry for such a long post

I just don’t know what to do and feel like shit

I even fear having a nervous breakdown and losing my job