I just want this back!!!! 💔😞😭

I just want to take a test and it be positive again! I want to be going to my first pregnancy appointment on Monday. I want to be crying happy tears again instead heart broken tears. I want to be talking about baby names with my husband again. I want to be planning my first baby shower and gender reveal. I want to be whole again. I want my baby back!!! 💔😭😭