It’s over for me

I went to the ER last night due to the fact that I was bleeding and had stomach cramping. They completed blood work and a urine test. The last thing they did was an ultrasound.

There was nothing but blood in there, no baby. I’m 11 weeks now but the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks. My mom was with me, she’s a very strong woman. I didn’t want to cry in front of her or the doctors but my mom eyes got very watery. She wouldn’t let it fall. I text my boyfriend while I was laying in the hospital bed, letting him know I was there and it isn’t good and he wasn’t emotional at all, he text back “ok.” That was the last text I got from him last night. He text me this morning stating he fell asleep very early. Didn’t even CALL ME OR ask how the baby’s doing or what the doctors said... just an irrelevant text, “I’m sorry, I fell asleep very early last night.” I just lost our baby and that’s the best he could do. No good morning or anything. Anyway, I know it’s all in God’s plan and maybe in the future, I’ll get blessed to see my baby and not blood.

This was all A nightmare and I wouldn’t wish this on any women at all. No one should go through this, even if you never wanted to be pregnant in the first place, I promise you, this will hurt you more than anything ever, if not the same night you find out then definitely the very next morning because I’m crying hard then ever now because reality sink in and I now realize that there’s no baby coming.

I don’t want to rain on no one else’s parade. Today is Sunday and it’s the beginning of the week and I want all moms to be to enjoy their pregnancy and be happy and please go see an ob/gyn the very first moment you find out you’re pregnant:: side note:: I think that’s the only thing I’d do differently my next pregnancy.