Freaking out 😭

My son is 3 days old and I love him so much! This baby blues is kicking my ass, I cannot stop crying, i dont even feel alive, i feel like I'm in a dream.

I want to do everything right!

His temp got low and I got scared, he spit up I got scared,

I feel like the things to worry about like choking and sids is getting the best of me, I'm trying to remind myself that there are people out there who have babies and dont deserve them. And peoole have raised babies in such gross enviornments. I dont even know how to think right now,

My mom is coming over tonight to watch him so I can hopefully get more than 4 hours of sleep 😭😢

Being a mommy is so hard and scary