Colleague is pregnant

So today a colleague announced she’s pregnant. I haven’t worked there too long just a few months but I was so embarrassed and felt awkward cos people there knew of my situation. Been trying for years to get pregnant with no luck so far.

I had my period 5 days late this month so was bummed about that and then to have this woman announce she was pregnant just made me feel like shit. I’m happy for her I mean she’s also struggled for four years to get preg and suffered a miscarriage but in that moment all I could think about was myself!

Why isn’t it happening to me? Is everyone thinking I feel awkward? Oh god now I feel so awkward, I got up and went to the toilet after a bit and came back to a note on my desk asking if I was ok, left by another colleague. I felt even worse thinking people thought I left the room cos of her when I actually left to change my pad! Lol

Maybe I’m reading too much into it, I’m happy for her but I just really feel like shit atm. I hope no one at work thinks they can’t share good news like this cos of me