What do you do....

My postpartum depression is now in full swing... I feel so uncomfortable In my body.. I love that it made a perfect little girl but I don’t love what it looks like I feel so ugly, and disgusting. It didn’t help that my husband lost his sex drive like before I had her... and I just found out he’s watching Porn to fix it.. even when I’m home he’s so emotionally shut away.. my heart is hurting so fucking much...