A little sad ☹


The beginning of this pregnancy was AWFUL. I've talked about it some on here before, but I had really severe hyperemesis gravidarum, lost 45 lbs by 14 weeks and almost died because the HG caused me to become septic, have kidney failure, a collapsed lung, an esophageal tear, and pancreatitis. I'm SO thankful for the doctors who treated me, and that my baby and I made it out of all that mess with no complications. That's the most important thing to me. However, I'm starting to get a little sad that this will be my last pregnancy. My OB told me that it wouldn't be smart at all to try again, because if I get pregnant and have HG again, we might not be able to control it and who knows what will happen. So while I'm SO over being pregnant, and I'm hoping she comes this week (38 weeks), I'm starting to think about all the things I'll miss after she's born. Like how I'll never feel little kicks again 😭 idk this is a big jumbled mess but I felt like I needed to let it out